Blind

Bind to the light and the night thats my fate maybe not maybe the science could help me in something maybe not i wish nothing nothing is changing Blind the the sufferering blind to the past blind to you i hope you are happy

Blind the night and in the day blind to the bunny nothing is changing infrot of me except for the shadows of my past i miss the happines i miss the smile but i accept the lost because it was the price for my betray for what ever i want to watch your smile one more time but i know it can't be because you forgetme for you good

Far

Why I always know what is going to happen why my damn instincts tell me the fate why the darkness always surround a better place for me a better history, why the people can believe. Love and hate are the same pure feelings what is love if is not brain state al lot of chemistries that make you feel like you are in the stars a place far away the humankind, far away your pain, but return to the earth is so painful and so human.

Be a wolf is be alone until you find a pack hurting other species maybe not for pleasure maybe I am only a bastard without hope in the penumbra of live. Working for a name, fighting for a reason to fight, Maybe all is an illusion, a nightmare, maybe is just Karma, is just a paid for my sins, for my hopes, for the pain I've cause to the others.

Wish I could end this today. I know I am not that lucky, one night, one nightmare again, one dream of my past my curse, my damn illusion. Why I can not decide on my destiny, why I can not believe.

O death give me a kiss in the night, make me free, give me hope, return my darkness, restore my madness, kill my illusion of a new dawn, destroy my obsession of a happy end of a happy stave in my history, finish the play like the Greeks.

Smile for me Nergal ancient god of Babylon.

Maybe is better of this way.

Pain

Sometimes the words gives hope, sometimes kill it, sometimes are wrong . There is nothing in the ice, nothing the water, all is dying in front of me, leaving myself to blame. I know the final words, nothing is going to change in my live.

I've betray myself again. I lost one time and I will continue losing all I have only the music through the anger, through the pain, through the sadness

I feel the pain in this word is falling on me. I close my eyes and wishing the end, one nightfall in the stars one day without nightmares knowing the end, and in my darkest hour i will fight until the last moment. I fail ones but I will never betray, never surrender, never forget, Notthat curse mistake, not that damn mistake.

I am sorry I am really sorry for my words maybe was the last talk maybe was the last time i have been with you.

But I know that "There is no glory without PAIN"

Imagine there's no heaven
it's easy if you try
no hell bellow us
above us only sky.

Beatles Imagine

For me there is only a illusion of a far away world.

RIP

For those who die the last week. I am her to try to do my best work i not going to surrender now or ever one last rose one last goodbye one last shoot i hope the can find their paradise a place for them with their beloved. I hope that really exist but I only hope that for them my sympathy for my father and mother one last tear for both.

Because they never cry they always try fight for them.

L.R.B.

14 February 2011

J.L.C.H.

19 February 2011

Paid

You gave me the chance, time and again in vain
Now my feelings for you
Every tear, every smile, paid in full
Wrecked the chain, but no longer can I take the pain

One last Goodbye Anathema

How I needed you
How I grieve now you're gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
And my being

I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
Oh I wish, I wish you could have stayed

one song

Lacrimas Profundere - Dear Amy

Feel it
I'm tired of being with you
Feel it
Our time is running out
Feel it
There is nothing left to lose
Feel it
You're pushing me down
So you never wanted me... or do you now?
I bleed but you won't heal
And I won't beg for your mercy
You kissed me then you disappeared
And now you treat me like a whore again
I bleed but you won't heal
When you touch me I feel dirty
You kissed me then you left me here
And now you treat me like a whore again

Feel it
I still sacrifice myself
Feel it
You still tear my life apart
Feel it
I'm on my way to hell
Feel pt
One more time