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Why I always know what is going to happen why my damn instincts tell me the fate why the darkness always surround a better place for me a better history, why the people can believe. Love and hate are the same pure feelings what is love if is not brain state al lot of chemistries that make you feel like you are in the stars a place far away the humankind, far away your pain, but return to the earth is so painful and so human.

Be a wolf is be alone until you find a pack hurting other species maybe not for pleasure maybe I am only a bastard without hope in the penumbra of live. Working for a name, fighting for a reason to fight, Maybe all is an illusion, a nightmare, maybe is just Karma, is just a paid for my sins, for my hopes, for the pain I've cause to the others.

Wish I could end this today. I know I am not that lucky, one night, one nightmare again, one dream of my past my curse, my damn illusion. Why I can not decide on my destiny, why I can not believe.

O death give me a kiss in the night, make me free, give me hope, return my darkness, restore my madness, kill my illusion of a new dawn, destroy my obsession of a happy end of a happy stave in my history, finish the play like the Greeks.

Smile for me Nergal ancient god of Babylon.

Maybe is better of this way.